I have two days of school left before the summer begins. I’m looking forward to it but I’m also a bit sad. I wish I could go back in time and change a few things. People who say they don’t regret anything are liars.
I’m full of regrets.
I had a best friend. We were playing a hoax and had everybody fooled that we were dating (I’m obsessed with social experiments and hoaxes and planned to create a series of videos for DAPS.tv based on our pretend engagement, but this never happened (THANKS DAPS), although we did film some amateur test runs which were cute and funny.), but then eventually we DID start dating. We had a great summer together, and I fell for her hard. The sexual chemistry was ridiculous as well. I haven’t felt that way about a person since I was a junior in High School (which was another miserable experience). But things went wrong. We stopped dating but still remained best friends. There was a lot of bitterness though, and it ruined our friendship. It wasn’t completely my fault though, a lot of it falls on her, but I rather focus on my end of it, since it’s the aspect I could have changed.
I would certainly make like Marty McFly and go back in time and try to let go of my bitterness. This would fix a lot of problems.
One of the things that sucks the most is that her friends are my friends, and I knew them before I knew her. Shit is weird now though and I barely see them, because they’re all girls and they all knew eachother longer. Girls stick together. Now, they all still seem to loooove me, but we don’t really hang out anymore because of the situation between me and the old squeeze. I really hate that, because they’re all good people but we can’t really hang out as a group anymore because she (she being her) doesn’t want to be my friend outside of school anymore. It complicates things.
This post probably doesn’t make any sense. I know it’s all over the place and kinda cryptic, but whatever.