Stay Gold

I have two days of school left before the summer begins. I’m looking forward to it but I’m also a bit sad. I wish I could go back in time and change a few things. People who say they don’t regret anything are liars.

I’m full of regrets.

I had a best friend. We were playing a hoax and had everybody fooled that we were dating (I’m obsessed with social experiments and hoaxes and planned to create a series of videos for DAPS.tv based on our pretend engagement, but this never happened (THANKS DAPS), although we did film some amateur test runs which were cute and funny.), but then eventually we DID start dating. We had a great summer together, and I fell for her hard. The sexual chemistry was ridiculous as well. I haven’t felt that way about a person since I was a junior in High School (which was another miserable experience). But things went wrong. We stopped dating but still remained best friends. There was a lot of bitterness though, and it ruined our friendship. It wasn’t completely my fault though, a lot of it falls on her, but I rather focus on my end of it, since it’s the aspect I could have changed.

I would certainly make like Marty McFly and go back in time and try to let go of my bitterness. This would fix a lot of problems.

One of the things that sucks the most is that her friends are my friends, and I knew them before I knew her. Shit is weird now though and I barely see them, because they’re all girls and they all knew eachother longer. Girls stick together. Now, they all still seem to loooove me, but we don’t really hang out anymore because of the situation between me and the old squeeze. I really hate that, because they’re all good people but we can’t really hang out as a group anymore because she (she being her) doesn’t want to be my friend outside of school anymore. It complicates things.

This post probably doesn’t make any sense. I know it’s all over the place and kinda cryptic, but whatever.

very appropriate

In a couple of weeks, I’ll be on a megabus to Baltimore, to then drive to  Madison, Wisconsin, where I’ll be playing my first, and maybe, last show ever. 

A few weeks ago, an internet messageboard acquaintance of mine asked me if I was interested in playing a DIY concert that another internet messageboard acquaintance of mine is throwing. He’s heard me sing karaoke in a humorous video chatroom, and liked it. While meeting up with strangers from the internet is a bit weird, I’ve always wanted to sing to a crowd before, so naturally, I said yes. But we weren’t sure what we were going to perform. We just knew we wanted to entertain or possibly bore a crowd. After some thought, I suggested we cover Smiths songs, and he agreed. We’re being billed as BROISSEY, and opening for the night. 
It’s very exciting but also extremely intimidating. Since we live in different states, there is no real time to rehearse. Will we be terrible? Will the crowd hate us? Will the ladies not buy into my charming mannerisms? It would certainly hurt my ego. It’s a one shot deal, so I really want to do a good job. I would like to make a positive lasting impression to at least one person. But most of all, I want to have fun, and sing songs that I will always love. 
The Smiths are very important to me, and this is a pretty neat opportunity, as dorky as it sounds. I’ll try to represent Morrissey to the best of my abilities. 
If you are reading this and happen to be in Wisconsin on May 29th, please come by. I’ll be very grateful. 
Wish me luck. I hope I don’t get kidnapped or anything like that.